Somebody save me
why does it feel like everything’s empty
Can’t be seventeen forever
We’ll get in my car
There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab
Just waiting for the call
This earthquake weather has got me shaking inside
I’m high up and dry
At home smiling like an idiot listening to music
I feel like I haven’t progressed at all in this past year. I’m still stuck. Of course things passed and things are different but I feel that every time I take a step forward, I get knocked back, having to crawl back forward. The worst part is that I don’t really know what I’m looking to do or gain. I’ve been stuck in the same place for a while and I’ve buying useless materialistic things just to ensure myself that I can still gain. Maybe it’s just the thrill of having something new in the slightest bit. Really, I’m blank again. I’m back on this stupid typing type shit. Trying to explain to myself that these things can be put into words. Back to square one.
I can’t find my drawing tablet.
Title: What I'm Looking For
Artist: Brendan Benson
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Well I don’t know what I’m looking for
But I know that I just want to look some more
And I won’t be satisfied ‘til there’s nothing left that I haven’t tried
For some people it’s an easy choice
But for me there’s a devil and an angel’s voice
Well I don’t know what I am looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more
Well I don’t know what I’m living for
But I know that i just wanna live some more
You hear it from strangers
And you hear it from friends
That love never dies
And love never ends
I don’t want to argue
No, I don’t want to fight
‘Cause you’re always wrong
And I’m always right
Well I don’t know what I’m living for
But I know that I just want to live some more
I used to be involved and I felt like a king
Now I’ve lost it all and i don’t feel a thing
I may never grow up
I may never give in
And I blame this world that I live in
I visit Hell on a daily basis
And I see the sadness in all your faces
I’ve got friends who are married and their lives seem complete
And here I am still stumbling down a darkened street
A darkened street
And I act like a child
And I’m insecure
And I’m filled with doubt
And I’m immature
Sometimes it creeps up on me
And before I know it I’m lost at sea
But no matter how far I roam
I always find my way back home
But I don’t know what I’ve been waiting for
But I know that I don’t wanna wait anymore
Looking for
What I’m looking for
Unbelievably unreliable you are.
It’s been a long time.
I honestly forgot that I had a blog. So many things have passed.
